moving on...

friends commented this time round, i'm taking things a lot better. This time is very different from the last I guess.

This time, i myself had contemplated ending it, but being soft-hearted and sentimental as i am... i didnt do it. so mayb now things r actually just turning out the way they should be. where we're both free to pursue what we really seek in life. painful and sad no doubt, but what's important is the journey, not the destination. No matter what, however "she bu de" i feel, I just keep telling myself to look forward.

why is it so different this time? i dunno, mayb it's cos we dun spend an awful lot of time together in the first place. jus weekends for 9 months, i dunno how much it adds up in real days. to be fair, i think he did make efforts... mayb, like his sis said, "mayb it's bad timing". maybe... but nothing else to be done.

it feels bad to break up over sms. a bitter aftertaste, i feel almost embarassed to tell others how it's ended. it kinda reflects badly on my judgement of people... i was actually in love with a guy who ended things with me over 1 sms... not a few, not a phonecall... ONE sms... so what was there to hold on anymore leh? nothing... simply nothing... muff n kona, scold a few **#$^*(&#^$ for me! wahahhaha

after the boyfriends n breakups, friends really r the ones who stay true to support me. thank God for friends, and for the fact that the emotional involvement in my last relationship hasnt been that strong, so hopefully it wil b pretty easy to get over.

back to square 1 now... jus me... single again... free again... lonely again perhaps... couple of weeks ago, i asked God if this is his will for me... so i guess this is His answer for me

sighz...